Friday, April 29, 2011

Things I Know For Sure

During Graduation last week, a lot of people talked about what we learned throughout our education and the things we now know. Because I studied philosophy I mostly came out of class knowing that I don’t know anything. But, even though I’ve become accustomed to doubting anything that is “known” (thanks Descartes), there are a few things I know for sure.

I know about the couches in A101, or the Man Cave as some people like to call it. To me, it’s “the boy’s.” I know that their door is unlocked 74% of the time and my favorite blanket is hardly ever in use. I know which plug works best in the living room and that everybody can see through the front window when the blinds are open. I know a lot about best friends becoming family and that fort making is not just for 8 year olds.

I know about the fourth floor of the JFSB. I know the professors by name, first and last, and can point you in the direction of their offices. I know a little about philosophy and a lot about writing papers. I know that Kierkegaard got it right when describing how to be a true Christian and Kant is tough if you don’t know what to look for.

I know about Harry Potter. I know that Harry is a wizard and Dudley is a muggle. I know that Snape had to kill Dumbledore, that it was all part of the plan that was set into motion long before any of us even realized. I know that “lumos” means lights on and “nox” means lights off. I also know exactly what butterbeer tastes like, and what it feels like to be at Hogwarts with the people who’ve made my life magical.

I know a lot about Vegas. I know what it’s like to walk down the Strip in the middle of the night and how weird it feels to drive through during the day. I know which songs at the Bellagio fountains are the best and exactly how to get to each Panda Express. I can tell you what to wear if you plan on going to The Bank or the hot tub. And I can promise you that you won’t regret staying at the Best Western Mardi Gras.

I know what it means to be a believer, to be a Christian. I know a lot about faith and a little about God. I know about scripture and prophets and church and hymns. I can tell you exactly what it means to be Mormon.

I know a lot about college and Netflix and hiking and making the perfect grilled cheese sandwich, but I don’t know a lot about “the real world.” I don’t know what it’s like to have a real full time job that isn’t a student position or a summer temp. I barely know what it’s like to be 21 years old. I don’t know how to buy a car or what it means to have money in your savings account. I still get nervous when I have to call people on the phone and I’m not eloquent or elegant. But I guess that’s part of growing up, part of picking up and moving on – my “I know” list will continue to grow longer, and for that I'm excited.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

enter to learn, go forth to serve


Yesterday I graduated from Brigham Young University with a Bachelor of the Arts in Philosophy, and a double minor in History and Logic.

Now what?

Saturday, April 9, 2011

you mean i have to leave provo?

"Hey Hannah, you graduate in two weeks! How do you feel?"

How I typically respond: Excited! Can't believe my time at BYU is over. I'm really looking forward to moving to Washington DC in May.

How I want to respond: YOU CAN'T MAKE ME LEAVE THIS PLACE. WAAAAA. LIFE SLOW DOWN.

Friday, April 1, 2011

I've spent the last few months trying to make sense of how shady people are.

It is in our human nature to hurt each other. We're inherently broken, born into this fallen state. We spend our whole lives interacting with each other, trial and error, give and take. And sometimes it works, but most of the time it doesn't. Most of the time we do the wrong thing. Most of the time we lie or cheat or say something we shouldn't. There is no rule book for human emotions, no way to rationalize and weigh our options every second of the day.

How are we suppose to survive when the world is this way?

Forgiveness.

We have to forgive. Because he hurt you today, but you're going to hurt her tomorrow. Sometimes people mean to be malicious and hateful, but most of the time they don't. We have to step back and realize we all share a common fault. Humanity is essentially inhumane, we all share this experience. Without the power to forgive we are doomed to fail.

Forgive. Forgive them just like everyone has forgiven you.